Sometimes in our spiritual journeys, we get worn down, discouraged, and frustrated. When our reality looks nothing like the promises of God, it's easy to lose heart. It would make sense to just cut our losses and choose another path. Have you ever felt this way? You are not alone.
If you decide to wait for someone else to encourage you or build you up, you could be waiting a while. People won't always catch on to your vision, and you have to find your own way through the rough patches. I encourage you to go to the Rock, Jesus Christ. He understands everything you feel because He once walked this earth just like you. He had moments when He didn't want to face His situation as well. Let Him guide you in His perfect way.
No one said following Christ was easy. No one would dare discount the pain and suffering that you endure. The mental anguish is oftentimes worse than any physical pain a person can inflict, but you have to hold on to the promises that God made to you. Go to Him and ask for some new wine, some fresh oil, a revival! Ask Him to create in you a clean heart and to renew a right spirit within you. He doesn't expect you to go through alone; He wants you to depend on Him. He loves you, so trust Him.